A Nobody is me...I am a nobody...

2009-03-14T17:32:00.002+08:00

I wish i could turn back time...
my life is totally screwed...
if only my life was a game...
then i could restart...
i want to change all the mistakes that i've made..
i want to stamp out love from my life..
i want to change my life...
anyone out there got a solution?
haiz..
probably not...
maybe life is a really a game...
then wen i get killed it starts all over again at a certain checkpoint...
haiz..
if only god really bothered about me...
he would end my suffering...
if only one of my frens knew witchcraft...
i could go back in time...

2009-03-12T18:22:00.002+08:00

Here's a video that almost made me cry...T.T

song's You'll think of me by Keith Urban...
songs about a guy..
hes wife/gf left him...
then he still lovesick over her...
desperately missing her...
keep thinkin about her...
but then he tried to comfort himself..
that guys situation somehow similiar to me...
fuckin lovesick idiot...
tryin to let go...
man...
im gettin emo again...
no more le...
bye...

2009-03-11T20:07:00.002+08:00

haiz...been 1 week plus since i posted...

this few days i did alot of reflection on myself...

most of my problems i realised...

but now i too lazy to care...

but 1 thing i finally realised about myself...

i must learn to let go...

wtf...

seriously...

haiz...

no more emo talk...

my orienteering coming up on monday:)

and im feelin confident :0

oh no!!

means something bad will happen!!!

wenever i feel that i will own,

something always screws up :(

haiz...

hope me and brandon will pass and both of us will get our lance cop rank..

haiz...

dunno wad to say le...

realised this few days im very distracted...

haiz...

hope i get better soon...

bye...

2009-03-01T14:02:00.002+08:00

:(:(:(:(!!!!
i feel damn down..
:(...
the thing i feared most happened..
again as usual..
good job fate...
haiz...
someone left me just wen i need that someone alot...
well...
not exactly left..
but just as bad...
:(:(:(:(
love sucks..
i hate love...
i hate hate..
i hate everything..
fuck...
life sucks...
argh...
argh!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
when can i cheer up again...
:(:(:(:(
some1 help!!!
:(:(:(:(:(

2009-03-01T00:08:00.003+08:00

feelin kinda sick now...

:(...

today super stupid...

went to 1st aunts hse to eat..

but mom got gastric wen we reach there...

then pain like crap the whole time..

then at night very serious...

she keep sweatin and then vomittin and diarreoh...

then we(my sis,1st aunt and me) had to bring her to doctor

reach the clinic..

mom keep goin to faint like that...

2malays guys dere wanted to see doctor but see her..

tell the nurse nvm them go and attend to my mom first..

nice guys:)

then the doctor tell us to bring mom to CGH..

then wait wait wait..

mom like very very ill

then wen mom finally in observation room,

i started to fall sick...

now got flu and headache..

but nvm:)

mom's much better now:)

thats the most important thing!!

haha..

realised i startin to like FM Static songs alot liao...

just now downloaded whole bunch of their songs..

haha..

haiz..

i go sleep le la..

my head paining again liao..

bye:)

2009-02-26T20:04:00.002+08:00

haven been posting for damn long...

lots of things had happened since my last post...

lazy to remember all so gonna post only abt stuff i remember..

ps..got noob memory...

ok...

yesterday..

did math test

failed horribly(6/15) because of stupid com,make me cannot see questions and options...

yes...

im still sour abt it...

today..

during english,went to my blog to see my tags...

saw alot of ppl scoldin me..

i didnt bother to read them cause i noe its all abt her...zzz...

but i didnt even say anything abt her for damn long..

why they now then scold me??

then after sch,wen goin cut hair with yiliang(NCC) and christopher,

i finally noe the truth...

yiliang went to tag at her blog as "..."

then say alot of offensive but seriously funny stuff..

her frens read,

think is me..

scold me..

zzz...

btw,my hair seriously suck now...

currently helpin some1 with her relationship,

screwed up as usual...

zzz...

now i damn scared she sad too much i lose her as fren...

T.T

to that fren of mine,

dun emo le...get better soon...:)

haiz..

nothing much le...

to all her frens,

im sayin sorry for wad he did,

u can think im a coward and shrinkin responsibilty wadeva...

but seriously,its not me...

i haven been postin for damn long..

much less readin blogs...

and in case its not that thing,

i never say that shes a hooker...

so dun be dumb and accuse other ppl without proof k?

if my dad's a lawyer,

i can sue u till u die...

lol..

nvm..

just stop k?

its irritatin...

lol...

2009-02-21T00:35:00.003+08:00

finally feelin better abit...

thanks to "kill yourself day"

lol...

zzz...

actually got nothing to post derh...

just wanted to tell everyone!!

i finally found the song ive been searchin for for like ages!!!

i didnt noe the title so it was damn hard...

finally found it on baidu!!

woohooo!!

btw,today walk home with platoon mates...

as usual,i was emoing...

chawit heard it and straight away called ______ a hooker!!!

lol!!

i love u man!!hi-five!!totally agree man!!

guess hus the person that tio called?:)

i bet ull never get it unless u noe me *smirk*

orienteering is a peice of shit...

was so tired man...

crap...

luckily i eat liao not so tired...

so i can be online so late xD!

wowowow!!

as i recall more and more abt today,

the more happy i get!!

wow!!

perhaps life is happy after all!!

that is if chawit gets a new insultin name for her(thats a hint) everyday:)

yep...

i have a feelin my lifes gonna get better sooner or later...

ima get a GOOD gf that dun flirt around(not happy arh?come kill me la!)

my studies will improve...

my drills will improve...my fitness will improve also...

hope that day comes soon!!

wowowow!!

my lifes now full of hope!!

nobodys gonna empty it now!!

i noe!!

i'll go spread my hope to other ppl tmr!!

but for now...

SLEEP!!

2009-02-19T16:59:00.002+08:00

man...

having lots of sucidal thoughts recently...

haiz...

was thinkin how she would feel if i died...

thought up 3 scenerios..

1)she will be super happy and laugh and party

2)she would be happy and laugh but then everyone see she so evil then dun like her...

3)she scared like shit wen some1 died for her...

haha...

lets see which is more probable...

hm...

shld be choice 1 barh...

haiz...

im getting too emo recently...

haiz...

just hope one of these days i wont go and jump...

cause MaMa would be sad like hell...

then i die also will regret....

haiz...

oh ya...

i was correct abt ****** and her...

they are together..

wtf...

wad a (insert offensive word here)!!!

cant live 2weeks without men...

tsk..tsk..tsk...

and if shes not that and liked ****** frm the start,

then why the fuck be with me?

treat me as subsitute arh?

dont like me then say la...

wtf...

treat me like subsitute,toy me...

wtf...

isit that u get toyed by ur ex(before me) then u not happy,

now come toy me?

wtf...

zzz....

anger plus sadness is not a nice combo...

haiz...

dun type le la...need to cool off...

2009-02-18T21:16:00.002+08:00

i love excercise...

what i hate is what comes after it....

cause when i exercise,

everything is taken off my mind...

but what comes after it?

cramps,stiff muscles,bad thoughts suddenly rushing back...

todays my first cc training...

almost killed me...

zzzz....

did interval...

12laps(run round parade square then run up to church there then go back)

sian....

after it i almost fainted....

seriously,i really wished i fainted...

never fainted before...wanted to try it...

yaya...sounds lame....but true....

argh...

mr tong added 1 more training on friday...

which makes friday frm my favourite day to kill yourself day...

....

now my fridays got cc training before sch,during sch got pe,after pe(after sch)got ncc...

wtf...

hope i will either benifit from this much physical training or just die...

i dun wan get injured till cannot exercise forever...

if that happens,the emo-est person award sure mine forever....

zzzz....

haiz...sry for u guys out there...

this blogs not very cheerfull...

sry...cant help it...

cause its a sad life for me....

haaahaaa....

zzz....

byebye....

2009-02-16T22:42:00.001+08:00

just realised my life wasnt as good as i tought...
now i've lost almost everything i had taken for granted...
i now have no chance with her anymore...
for im 99.9%sure she has found someone else T.T...
i've also lost my passion for studies...
today cant even manage 1hour of studying...
i've lost my ability to do pushups too..
could even do my average of 100standard anymore...
did 70 then gave up...
my leg is still paining with my first cc training just 2 days away...
my pride...my happiness....
all gone...
i really dunno wad to do...
gods not doin anything...
perhaps i shld do wad ive been wanting to do for so long...
but yet...
my only regret...
MaMa...
seeing her sad makes me sad...
i really dont want her to be sadden because of my own selfish reasons...
so how?
guys that've been reading my blog...
its time...
please help me...
i take much of this anymore...

i'm still clinging on to my last hope...

and im losing my grip...

2009-02-13T21:11:00.002+08:00

haiz...

still feeling emo...

haiz...

realised my fav word is "haiz...."

keep sayin it derh...

today walked to sch with a grade one pulled hamstring...

then after pe,become grade two le...

haiz...

so pain...

today walked hme with nicholas(with h)

thought of how we had been...

made me even more emo...

haiz...

maybe that guy(youshudnoehuiam) is right...

i still like her...

but haiz....

dunno wad to do,dunno wad to say...

cause everything is useless...

haiz....

with the nxt cc training on wed,

dunno how im gonna cope...

haiz...

i shld rest well...

2009-02-12T17:11:00.002+08:00

wa sian...

had emo mood today...

dunno why morning wake up already feel emo..

zzz...

maybe sihan was right...

i have mood swings...

then in school..

i realised smth weird...

i realised...

i still feel the same sad feeling wen i see her...

instead of getting angry...

wtf..maybe i was wrong...

maybe i hadnt given up after all...

maybe..i wasnt angry at all...

maybe,i was just cheating myself juz to make me feel better...

wadeva..

i noe shell do that someday frm the first day liao..

why still so sad...

haiz...

throw away sad thoughts...

I JUST GOT 2 PAIRS OF NEW SHOES!!!

YAY!!!!......

zzz...

couldnt hyper...

also realised i couldnt hyper ever since she left me..

zzz....

anyways...

just got a pair of black avia running shoes frm 1st cuz...

thx alot!!

and today went out and bought my first pair of real sports shoes!!

not that i dun have,but it was the first time i bought for myself...

bought a white reebok shoes to use for running also..

haha..

i think now i running maniac...

my goal by part c is to run top 10 for 2.4!!!

haha..

sounds impossible but im still gonna try...

nothing is impossible mah...

well,nothing but one thing...

its probably impossible for me to be like i was 3weeks ago again...

or at least get her back...

wa sian...

i really confused!!

i dunno wad im feeling!!!

argh!!!

its like 1 moment i feel like killing her,the nxt i miss her..

argh!!

some1 help me!!!

2009-02-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

saw a nice story on the net!!
decided to share it:

Pushups for Donuts
There was a boy by the name of Steve who wasattending school in Utah.In this school Seminary classes are held duringschool hours. Brother Christianson taught Seminaryat this particular school. He had an open-door policyand would take in any student that had been thrownout of another class as long as they would abide by hisrules. Steve had been kicked out of his sixth periodand no other teacher wanted him, so he went intoBrother Christianson’s Seminary class.
Steve was told that he could not be late, sohe arrived just seconds before the bell rang and hewould sit in the very back of the room. He wouldalso be the first to leave after the class was over.
One day, Brother Christianson asked Steve to stayafter class so he could talk with him. After class,Bro. Christianson pulled Steve aside and said, “Youthink you’re pretty tough, don’t you?”
Steve’s answer was, “Yeah, I do.”
Then Brother Christianson asked, “How many push-upscan you do?”
Steve said, “I do about 200 every night.”
“200? That’s pretty good, Steve,” BrotherChristianson said. “Do you think you could do 300?”
Steve replied, “I don’t know… I’ve never done 300at a time.”
“Do you think you could?” Again asked BrotherChristianson.
“Well, I can try,” said Steve.
“Can you do 300 in sets of 10? I need you todo 300 in sets of ten for this to work. Can you doit? I need you to tell me you can do it,” BrotherChristianson said. Steve said, “Well… I think Ican… yeah, I can do it.”
Brother Christianson said, “Good! I need youto do this on Friday.”
Friday came and Steve got to class early and sat inthe front of the room. When class started, BrotherChristianson pulled out a big box of donuts.Now these weren’t the normal kinds of donuts,they were the extra fancy BIG kind, with creamcenters and frosting swirls. Everyone was pretty excited-itwas Friday, the last class of the day, and they weregoing to get an early start on the weekend.
Bro. Christianson went to the first girl in thefirst row and asked, “Cynthia, do you want a donut?”
Cynthia said, “Yes.”
Bro. Christianson then turned to Steve and asked,“Steve, would you do ten push-ups so that Cynthiacan have a donut?”
Steve said, “Sure,” and jumped down from his desk todo a quick ten. Then Steve again sat in his desk.
Bro. Christianson put a donut on Cynthia’s desk.
Bro. Christianson then went to Joe, the next person,and asked, “Joe do you want a donut?”
Joe said, “Yes.” Bro. Christianson asked, “Stevewould you do ten push-ups so Joe can have a donut?”Steve did ten push-ups, Joe got a donut.
And so it went, down the first aisle, Steve did tenpushups for every person before they got theirdonut.
And down the second aisle, till Bro. Christiansoncame to Scott.
Scott was captain of the football team and center ofthe basketball team. He was very popular and neverlacking for female companionship. When Bro.Christianson asked, “Scott do you want a donut?”
Scott’s reply was, “Well, can I do my own pushups?”
Bro. Christianson said, “No, Steve has to do them.”
Then Scott said, “Well, I don’t want one then.”
Bro. Christianson then turned to Steve and asked,“Steve, would you do ten pushups so Scott can have adonut he doesn’t want?”
Steve started to do ten pushups. Scott said, “HEY!I said I didn’t want one!”
Bro. Christianson said, “Look, this is my classroom,my class, my desks, and my donuts. Just leave it onthe desk if you don’t want it.” And he put a donuton Scott’s desk.
Now by this time, Steve had begun to slow down alittle. He just stayed on the floor between setsbecause it took too much effort to be getting upand down. You could start to see a littleperspiration coming out around his brow. Bro.Christianson started down the third row. Now thestudents were beginning to get a little angry.
Bro. Christianson asked Jenny, “Jenny, do you want adonut?”
Jenny said, “No.”
Then Bro. Christianson asked Steve, “Steve,would youdo ten pushups so Jenny can have a donut that shedoesn’t want?” Steve did ten, Jenny got a donut.
By now, the students were beginning to say “No” andthere were all these uneaten donuts on the desks.Steve was also having to really put forth a lot ofeffort to get these pushups done for each donut.
There began to be a small pool of sweat on the floorbeneath his face, his arms and brow were beginning to getred because of the physical effort involved.
Bro. Christianson asked Robert to watch Steve tomake sure he did ten pushups in a set because he couldn’tbear to watch all of Steve’s work for all of thoseuneaten donuts. So Robert began to watch Steveclosely. Bro. Christianson started down the fourthrow.
During his class, however, some students hadwandered in and sat along the heaters along the sides of theroom. When Bro. Christianson realized this; he dida quick count and saw 34 students in the room. Hestarted to worry if Steve would be able to make it.
Bro. Christianson went on to the next person and thenext and the next. Near the end of that row, Stevewas really having a rough time. He was taking a lotmore time to complete each set.
Steve asked Bro. Christianson, “Do I have to make mynose touch on each one?”
Bro. Christianson thought for a moment, “Well,they’re your pushups. You can do them any way that youwant.”
And Bro. Christianson went on.
A few moments later, Jason came to the room and wasabout to come in when all the students yelled, “NO!Don’t come in! Stay out!”
Jason didn’t know what was going on. Steve pickedup his head and said, “No, let him come.”
Bro. Christianson said, “You realize that if Jasoncomes in you will have to do ten pushups for him.”
Steve said, “Yes, let him come in.”
Bro. Christianson said, “Okay, I’ll let you getJason’s out of the way right now. Jason, do youwant a donut?”
“Yes.”
“Steve, will you do ten pushups so that Jasoncan have a donut?” Steve did ten pushups very slowlyand with great effort. Jason, bewildered, washanded a donut and sat down.
Bro. Christianson finished the fourth row, thenstarted on those seated on the heaters. Steve’sarms were now shaking with each pushup in a struggle tolift himself against the force of gravity. Sweatwas dropping off of his face and, by this time, therewas not a dry eye in the room.
The very last two girls in the room werecheerleaders and very popular. Bro. Christianson went to Linda,the second to last, and asked, “Linda, do you want adoughnut?
Linda said, very sadly, “No, thank you.”
Bro. Christianson asked Steve, “Steve, would you doten pushups so that Linda can have a donut shedoesn’t want?”
Grunting from the effort, Steve did ten very slowpushups for Linda. Then Bro. Christianson turned tothe last girl, Susan. “Susan, do you want a donut?”
Susan, with tears flowing down her face, asked,“Bro. Christianson , can I help him?”
Bro. Christianson, with tears of his own, said, “No,he has to do it alone, Steve, would you do tenpushups so Susan can have a donut?”
As Steve very slowly finished his last pushup, withthe understanding that he had accomplished all thatwas required of him, having done 350 pushups, hisarms buckled beneath him and he fell to the floor.
Brother Christianson turned to the room andsaid. “And so it was, that our Savior, Jesus Christ,plead to the Father, “Into thy hands I commend myspirit.” With the understanding that He had doneeverything that was required of Him, he collapsed onthe cross and died. And like some of those in thisroom, many of us leave the gift on the desk,uneaten.

2009-02-07T16:20:00.002+08:00

lived the whole of yesterday feeling sorry...
got scolded fuck twice...
prepared for todays 2.4km run yesterday night...
everythings was perfect...
then guess wad?
fate had to ruin everything again!!
woke up,
whole fucking body fucking ache till i cant get out of bed...
i was sooooo pissed
so the whole day my mood ruined again...
saw meitings blog again...
she posted my sms there..
read her post
ruined my mood more...
i already apologised that night that i posted due to anger..
and she still had to push it..
so wad if i have AP,am shameless,ungentlemanly?
so wad?
ur worst!
if wad ur saying is true,

your the dumb girl stupid enough to like that AP,shameless,ungentlemanly guy!!

whoever likes u in the future would probably be as dumb as me...

cause wen u guys break,

he'll have hes smses made public,

and be humilated by hes frens...

i wish ur nxt bf the best of luck,

cause he'll need it if hes gonna stay alive...
i dun care about which straw of urs is burning up...
i dun care wad u think about me now,
cause since u dun wanna be frens,
we're enemies.
i begged u for forgiveness,
begged you to start over as FRIENDS.
AND YET YOU HAD TO FUCKING THROW ANOTHER OF UR CHILDISH TANTRUMS AND IGNORE ME.
and if u still not smart enough to understand this,
im equally pissed with u.
but im gonna throw childish tantrums and not talk to anyone.
and neither am i gonna treat you differently.
AND IF YOU THINK THE WORD FUCK IS VERY NICE,
YOUR WRONG,
YOU FUCKING DUN EVEN DESERVE TO SAY THAT!!!
and if ur puposely trying to humilate me,
why use the public method?
haven u forgotten?
I'M SHAMELESS,how can it work on me?
and if I'M FUCKING UNGENTLEMANLY,i wouldnt have listened to Him and put up with u.
YOU THINK YOUR THE ONE THAT WANTED A BREAK FIRST?
wrong again!
after u started throwing ur stupid tantrums,
u dunno,but im already very pissed.
i was your BOYFRIEND,not your goddamn BABYSITTER!
i thought about it,even ask Him,decided to bear with it-big mistake.
cause soon after that, i had to decieve myself more into thinkin that ur tantrums were cute.
so if any guy has any success with u in the future,
ill noe hes profession - profession babysitter
or else he wouldnt be able to take a baby like u.
forget it,
you never got to know me at all,
and now ur saying this shit about me.

to other ppl:
i dun care if meitings gonna flare up like a volcano and kill me.
ive had enough already.
let her be angry,
let her kill me for all i care.
cause ill die soon anyway.
and if u count urself as my fren,
lend me a knife and ill end my own life,before she does.
you dont want your fren to get killed by other ppl.
and if u count urself as mt's fren,
lend a knife too.
you dun want ur fren to kill other ppl.

forget it,
i dunwanna get more and more angry.
bye

2009-02-06T21:59:00.002+08:00

today ncc naphfa+some partb bbq...

i dunno the purpose of the bbq actually...

i think is bonding and to celebrate promotion...

i didnt have much fun...(booohoo!!:[!! )

cause i lazy go play basketball/soccer and everyone wan cook...

dun let me cook...T.T

but overall,

its nice la..

just that i not my best mood...

anyways,

got to know some new stuff about my platoonmates,wen jie & wei en!

and something seriously damn weird happened!!

i was like eating my chicken

then suddenly hear this baby crying noise...

then i was like "WTF?HOW CAN THERE BE A BABY CRYING HERE?"

i was damn freaked out..

then i look around...

then see 2 cats making the noise...

wtf?

so creepy man...

then they starting fighting and making the noise!!

then it was seriously damn loud and everybody looking at them!!

then they like somehow, dunno why but...noe they getting watched then they run to 1 dark corner to fight...

then obviously i continued watching..

then i even record down the sound!!

its super freaky...

seriously...

its seriously super duper sound like babies crying..

urgh...

so creepy....

the more i think about it,

the more creeped out i get...

zzz

sian..

dun wan type le..

bye....

2009-02-05T10:32:00.000+08:00

screw it...

i'm fucking sick...

but im only sick enough to not go to school...

wtf...

i want to be sicker,

i wan dengue.

i want to goddamn die.

im in a fuckin bad mood...

cause i realised wad someone apparently did..

behind my back..

i trusted that some1,

and this shit happened....

and why must so many fucked up stuff happen to me?

argh!!!

life stinks.

love sucks.

fate fucks.

god forgets about me.

2009-02-02T19:25:00.000+08:00

oh cool!!a sad song cheered me up:)
let u guys have a listen!

My tears run down like razorblades

And no, I'm not the one to blame

It's you, or is it me?And all the words we never say

Come out and now we're all ashamed

And there's no sense in playing games

When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?

We had the chance to make it

Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over

I wish that I could take it back

But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights

I lose my sense of wrong and right

I cry, I cry

It's shaking from the pain that's in my head

I just wanna crawl into my bed

And throw away the life I led

But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

It's over, it's over, why is it over?

We had the chance to make it

Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over

I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart

Don't say this won't last forever

You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart

Don't tell me that we will never be together

We could be, over and over

We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart

Don't say this won't last forever

You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart

Don't tell me that we will never be together

We could be, over and over

We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over

Unless you let it take you

It's not over, it's not over, it's not over

Unless you let it break you

It's not over

2009-02-02T16:20:00.001+08:00

haiz...

i really dunno wad to do le...

my life seriously sucks now...

just lost "that special girl"

and my science got b3 for the first time...

my results are sucking,

and all my dreams are ruined...

i really dunno wad to do...

normally relationships fail because the guy doesnt love the girl...

mines i love her too much...

over-protectiveness kills...

all because of silly mistakes,

i lost her...

if only she still liked me...

she would ask "why so emo"

and then she always cheers me up...

one way or another...

haiz...

all this is history liao...they can never happen again...

ill i can do is think about it and cry...

today in school,

i really felt like dying...

having to stop thinking about her for like 1 hour is already hard...

but i had i to forget her....

i really cant take it...

perhaps i shld really die...

wen im gone,

nothing will matter to me le...

i really hate this world...

i hate fate...

i hate my fucked up brain...

:'( someone save me!!

i cant take it anymore!!!!!

everything i put my heart into always fails!!

why??!!!!!!

:'(

2009-02-01T22:23:00.000+08:00

i dedicate this to the girl that brought light to my dark dark world:

Though our time together was short...

it was also sweet.

from the start,i didnt expect much from this relationship...

but as time passed,i realised that i really started to fall in love with u...

apparently,it was 'unbelievable'.

and lots of ppl couldnt believe,but hu cares,its notb...

ever since i was with u,

i realised i was smiling everytime talked on msn or sms,

and also wen we're talking in real life,

i couldn't help but admire how beautiful u are...

when i said you brought light to my dark dark world,

im serious.

although now we're not together,

ill still love you,

and still remember all the times we had together.

it was short but memorable.:)

remember our goal to go same jc and class nxt year?

i hope it still stands.

your the one girl that help me get back my smile(my real one)

your a great friend and a great gf.

so its goodbye for now then...

我们做不了情人，也可以做朋友！

lets be friends forever then!!

ill wun be too emo le!!i promise you!^^

this is for those bohliao ppl that read other ppl blog then laugh at the author:

fuck off my blog.

if you want to laugh at other ppl life,

go laugh at urs.

dun come here read my post then laugh laugh laugh.

dun piss me off.

2009-01-29T17:41:00.000+08:00

I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!

my life seriously stinks!!

i dont understand anything that teachers are teaching!

i keep pissing her off,

and my results are shit,

and my dad's being a motherfucker.

i dont care about it le...

he fuckin biased against me!!

i told my fuckin brother to stop annoying me,

stop poking me,

he wont listen,

slapped him,

the bastard say"not pain!!beat somemore leh!!"

bastard!

i whack him hard,

he cry,

mother fucker come,

scold me,

whack me,

say i cannot make brother cry,cannot whack brother

must 疼 him.

WHAT THE FUCK?

but im his goddamned son!

oldest son somemore!

i've done everything i can to make the family proud!

got into a good sec sch,

got the best results in whole family!

what has my brother done in his life?

NOTHING!!

and yet he loves him so much!

i cant touch him,

cannot make him cry,

discipline him=bully him.

YOU THINK I CANNOT CRY?

do you noe how bad my life is or not?

obviously you dont!

you dont care for the family!

all u care about is showing off to your friends!

and even thinking of buying new car when our family cant even afford more expenses!!

FUCK YOU!!

i cant take it liao!!

dont push me!

you may be strong,

so what?

when your old,

your nothing but a peice of shit!

i dont care,im nvr gonna take care of him when he gets old,

let his 乖小儿子 take care of him!

dont push me le,

i've had enough.

my life sucks bad enough le...

if i screw things up,

please dont blame me le...

i will noe its my fault...

cause it always is....

so please,this few days,

bear with me for awhile...

please...

so if i fuck anything up these few days,

im saying sorry here...

to everyone i have done wrong to...

im really am sorry...

i know i dont deserve you...but i really hope we can be together...

CNY part(day)2

2009-01-27T20:40:00.000+08:00

today second day of CNY!!

went visting too!!

but only went Mama hse and 2 other relatives hse!!

as promised,the pics!!

the vids are in the nxt post!!

lets start off with 2 pics of clouds!!(and sky and trees!!)

on the super packed van....finally!!stop 1!!
omg!!look at the view!!

zzzz....must be too much tv last night....

haha ruihao!!caught you nicking bakkwa!!

stop 2!!Mama's orange flat!!

AHHH!!DONT RAPE ME!!

eww sis...ur so horny!!!

last but not least!me and Mama!!

to be continued!!xD

CNY part(day) 1

2009-01-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

went visting today!!
was excited with ang bao since last night's 84!
but was disappointed by this year...
sian...total 142 nia..
wadeva la..
forget abt useless stuff!!
lets post some pics!!(paiseh only got first stop pics :P)
oh ya!!smth new abt this year visting!!
i nvr wear specs for it!!(my sis said i wear specs disgrace her...=.=)

on the road...

me with great-grandaunt(if im not rong)

the four sisters!!(plus great grandaunt)

little clouds today...

1st aunt's family!

4th aunt's family!

and mine of course!!

1st cuz with baby Alvon!

dun teach your grandma to suck eggs!!:@ (but in this case: adults,dun teach ur grandaunt how to carry baby!!)

finally!!me with Alvon!!

2nd uncle(alvon's grandad)'s family!+alvon - his parents

2nd aunt(not to be confused with 2nd uncle,shes single)with alvon!

thats all for today!!

tmr gonna post more!!!plus today's vids!!

bye!!

2009-01-24T22:09:00.000+08:00

today company run went quite well!

that is,for me!

got my best 4.3km record!!

22.15mins!w00ts!first in partA!!

didnt think it was possible for me but,

as usual,

Aaron slacking,the Chawit had cramp and Elwin ankle pain..

zzz

so i 'won'..

haha...not an impressive vivtory huh?

but at least i could suceed without getting stitch or walking!^^

i jogged for awhile to like not wear myself down..

then at half i change to fast jog,

then by that time those chiongsters all tired xD!

so i overtook them all!

muahahaha!!!

im evil!!xD

then last like 100plus metre then i run...

but at least i improved like 5mins and i not tired..

also broke my pull up record!!

3pull ups!!yay!!

partB company napfa i wun fail!!

but sadly,

theres nvr a day that i can be completely happy derh..

everyday got sad things derh..:(

booohoo!!

i missed her...

sian..cant see her for like 3days

siansiansian...

and she so busy somemore...

:( but nvm!

not all is hopeless!

we still have 1 year to go!

we can still be together!!^^

okay...

too happy lerh..

zzz...

haha..

bye!!

2009-01-22T17:03:00.000+08:00

ok...

now im pissed...

u ppl better stop spreading crap rumours abt me being with (whoever the person is) or wadeva..

seriously,

have you guys ever given a thought for other ppl feelings?

do you noe, how many ppl di siao me now when i go down for recess or wadeva?

it really pisses me off ok..

and that poor girl,

she so sad in class ok?

so you guys better stop.

i have nothing to her ok?

we're just good frens ok..

im gonna say 1 last time...

STAY OUT OF OTHER PPL BUSINESS AND DON'T FUCKING SPREAD FAKE RUMOURS!

grrr...

2009-01-18T11:07:00.000+08:00

sadness is not my style..

i decided liao.

theres nothing to be sad about..

in fact, i shld be angry...

seriously, i loved a god damned mask!

fuck it!!!

(sry for vulgar)

so frm now on ,

ill change

no more emo(sad) weeliang

the permanent weeliang is the happy one.

for that,im gonna change the bs too...

ok off to work!

bye

second time i typing this...zzzz

2009-01-18T00:12:00.000+08:00

AHBand concert was not much of a concert...

but the music not bad la...

not exactly the most entertaining thing in the world...

but also not boring....

haha..

got a bunch of super duper hyper ppl sitting diagonal infront of me...

through the concert,they like bobing up and down and dancing in their seats...

xD!so funny!!!

ppl keep laughing at them they dunno...

lol...

after concert,waited for some PartBs and chawit and their female frens to go 85 eat...

and it was not exactly fun waiting for them..

it was soooo boring...

soooooooo long...

zzz...

crapping again..

in the end, just go 85 to drink water and talk...

they keep talking abt their gf(s)...

make me so jealous!!!argh!!!

seriously wish i had a gf,anione also can,

just some1 that will and can love me...

hais...

soooo despo...

oh yea...

i got to know of a secret!!!

muahahaha

its abt NCC and its confidential!!!

muahahaha...dun tell u even u ask!!!

bleh!!!xP

haha..i in good mood liao!!!

also dunno why...

wadeva la..

dunno wad to say...

bye!!!

2009-01-15T18:35:00.000+08:00

dammit la..

my luck still haven changed...

this few days i damn dao mei man...

yesterday,just because i try flyin cbc,

i slipped cause of shoe..

then now have to have a splint on my arm..

typing and writing with it is damn tiring...

zzz..

fell down twice today also..

tried to walk horizontally up 3 stairs

fell and scratched my knee

damn pain if i touch it..

argh..

second wan i was stand on chair doin the notice board..

then i fall down again..

hit my shin...

T.T

weiling the evil girl wan to press my wound hard but she pressed a scar!!!

lmfao!

dumbass!

sian...hand tired liao..

no more blogging...

bye!

2009-01-09T21:18:00.000+08:00

sorta just got back from orientation performance...

was sort of killer...

my ppl screw up..

the whole ncc like screw up the first performance...

T.T

sad...

then second 1 everyone buck up liao..

but sadly..

pt still got some ppl screwed up

i shall not say hu..

but definetely not me!!xP

cause im gay,thats why!

muahahaha!

this year sec1 damn easy entertain

cbc they cheer like siao...

then 1hand c and 1hand b they woooaa!

then 1hand cbc and my pumping

they were crazy!!!

muahahaha

cant help it mah...

we too pro le..xP!!

didn't see many ppl that like ncc..

hope new part a will at least be better than us...

if not standard,then at least strength..

now damn little ncc ppl liao..

later nxt time i take over..

the part a 15ppl..

wtf...

lets hope for the best then!!!

i sian of typing too much liao..

hand tired..

bye!

yea..

2009-01-06T16:00:00.000+08:00

finally can post liao..

sian...

can post then dunno wad to say..

dun wan post then got a whole lot of crap to share..

zzz...

nvm...finally found a blogskin for my new class blog

xD!!!

oh yea!!

2008-12-31T22:01:00.000+08:00

from tomorrow,

I,Chng Wee Liang will never be sad again.

i hearby swear to myself never to be pessimistic no matter what happens.

Yes, JunQing, i will heed your advice.

I shall be optimistic for 2009 and see what happens.

I'll give life another try.

I promise never ever to give myself up.

this will be my new year promise and 2009 resolution.

Tomorow,I will be a different man.

2008-12-31T11:36:00.000+08:00

man...

my life really stinks...

really wish i could turn back time or switch my life with some1 else...

at least my f*ckin life wont be so boring...

originally

goin out with sk,chawit,weiling plus 1 girl

to countdown

then now,all give some shit reason dun wan go...

f*ck la...

i wan go out leh!!!

damn long nvr go out with other ppl liao!!!

cant take it animore!!

argh!!

2008-12-31T09:33:00.001+08:00

yo!saw 1 on huijuns blog...

was kinda bored so decided to do it and some other!

heres the results!

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Science/Math Nerd (Absolute Insane Laughter as you pour toxic chemicals into a foaming tub of death!) Well, maybe you aren't this extreme, but you're in league with the crazy scientists/mathmeticians of today. Very few people have the talent of math and science is something takes a lot of brains as well. Thank whosever God you worship, or don't worship, so thank no deity whatsoever in your case, for you people! Most of us would have died off without your help.
Drama Nerd
Literature Nerd
Social Nerd
Musician
Gamer/Computer Nerd
Artistic Nerd
Anime Nerd
What Be Your Nerd Type? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract geeks! Your stunning intellect and love of sci-fi and video games allures the geeks like nothing else. Maybe it is the sparkle in your eye that makes them want to text you, who knows. Geeks make good partners, but tend to be arguementative. If you are a TRUE geek magnet, you will know if that was spelled correctly, and actually care. If it is a bad-boy/bad-girl you are seeking, you are barking up the wrong tree, unless they are just 'bad' behind a PS2 console.
You attract Yuppies!
You attract unstable people!
You attract artsy people!
You attract models!
You attract rednecks!
What type of person do you attract? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

What stereotype do you belong to? Your Result: No stereotype not preppy yet not a complete loser. has good friends and doesn't revolve life around their looks or social status. All around good person. usually liked by everyone
Loner
Emo
Punk
Gamer
geek/nerd
Jock
Preppy
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new year's quiz

2008-12-30T18:02:00.000+08:00

hais...

still cant concentrate...

tmr then finish hw bahx...

i think i shld make a quiz myself!!!

here it goes!!

my quiz

a song to describe 2008: 爱。恨。难

your favourite day of 2008:1/1/08

happiest day of 2008: the whole year till 11/9/08

saddest day of 2008:11/9/08

goals set for this 2008:0

goals reached:0

goals set for 2009: 3

what are they?:

1)get her back as a fren

2)survive part b and sec2 life

3)improve studies

which goal is most important?: goal1

if u can start this year all over again,what will you change?:everything,seriously.

use 1 word to describe 2008: amazing

use 1 word to describe 2009: hopeful

9ppl to do this quiz:

1)anyone that read this blog/post

2)anyone that read this blog/post

3)anyone that read this blog/post

4)anyone that read this blog/post

5)anyone that read this blog/post

6)anyone that read this blog/post

7)anyone that read this blog/post

8)anyone that read this blog/post

9)anyone that read this blog/post

haha!!

i call that my new year's quiz!!

2008-12-30T17:43:00.000+08:00

hahas..

now takin a break from hw..

zuo wen is a hassle..aka a pain in the ass

zzz...

shld have worked harder at start of hols...

now nid to borrow here copy there and chiong hw...

now i starting to thing loving some1 sucks..

it distracts me...

i cant concentrate...

but i found something fun(or lame)

making my table 'sing'!!

cause my temporary phone vibrates alot esp. wen i play rock songs,

i put it on my table wen i play songs,

the table sorta hums!!

quite interesting!!

hais...

hope some1 will wan to go out with me on new years eve...

i dun wan to f*ckin bore myself to death on new years eve!!!

a boring christmas is enough!!

k..

less talk more work!

bye

2008-12-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

oh yea...

broke my own push-up record...

last time i remembered it was

20standard,20comando,20diamond,10butterfly and 15right hand and 15 spider.(total 85)

but today i broke my record!!

by 1 push up!!

roflmfao!

i did 40standard,20diamond,20spiderand 6comando...

haiz...

damn pain now...

i decided to give up cause my comando pushups cant fly liao..

so i noe i cant go on..

nvm...1is good enough :)

haha!!

now i'm in a good mood!

just got my first christmas present for as long as i can remember!!

my santa said not to tell but i'll give a hint,

hes tall(actually its 2 hints in those 2 words)

let u figure out urself bahx...

time to wait again..

bye!!

tmr got company run!!

oh yea!!

my dieting gonna work for sure!

2008-12-25T17:53:00.000+08:00

argh!!!

why the hell must every christmas be the same for me??

bored like shit at home...

no frens askin me out,

no parties,

no nothing...

haiz...

zzz......

i totally want to go out man...

sad.no 1 wan go out with me...

argh!!

damn fustrated!!

thats all i gonna say

bye

my christmas post!!

2008-12-25T00:02:00.000+08:00

haha,just got back from movie with chawit,melissa and ouwen

at first tot only chawit with his family

but was sort of suprised wen i saw them...

Yes Man was nice btw,

i would like to say the whole plot right now,

but i dun feel like it leh..

bleh!!xP

just say its a must watch,

that is, if ur bored.

christmas come liao,means new year coming,

means new beggining,new class, new everything,

and hopefully,new love(i cant take myself anymore)

love to talk more, but theres really nothing to talk about...

hope everyone gets their christmas presents!!

2008-12-21T23:54:00.000+08:00

oh great,now my world stopped..

stupid man...no1 is updating their blogs..

and now i cant talk to anyone,

no1 is online on msn...

argh!!

it really kills with no phone!!

2008-12-21T21:08:00.000+08:00

f*ck la...

phone lost...

today go out then lost...

go mama house..then only realised that phone lost when reach there...

must have left on taxi...

called my number but phone was off...

now go home spam call then can but no1 pick up..

wtf

the driver must have on-ed it and left it on his taxi and went home..

seriously,wtf..

argh!!

life cant suck more!!

woohooo!!i'm an uncle!!again!!

2008-12-20T22:01:00.000+08:00

oh yea!!!

my eldest cousin(or 大表姐 as we call her)

has just given birth to a baby boy yesterday night!!!

but more technically, today 12am+

but who cares!!!

its damn happy!!

and noname is SO DAMN CUTE!!!

(the baby doesn't have a name yet so i shall call him noname)

lookin at cute little noname, i had a weird thought,

the wants corner of my brain yelled,"dude!!i want a kid like him!!"

damn zzz...

but the next second i remembered my promise to myself(never to marry) that i made wen i was a kid and snapped myself out of this shit..

i noe u wan baby pics right...

so here's the cute pictures of my darlin noname

PS:sry for the rong way...

dunno how to rotate the pic :P

2008-12-19T01:10:00.000+08:00

was uber bored so went blog surfing...

saw a lot of spelling mistake in a lot of ppl blogs...

wa..holidays everyone slack liao...

yawn!!

so bored..

not tired but must sleep!!

for the sake of me!!

haiz...

no1 to talk to..

wish someone will talk to me!!

time to sleep liao!!

bye guys!!

PS: still missing NCC

day out(finally!!)

2008-12-18T18:28:00.001+08:00

just got home!

today's day out was AMAZING!

finally had the freedom to walk around outside my house!!!

went tm and wanted to watch the journey to center of the world in 3d show..or bolt.

then ry-ry saw his frens..

said gv was packed so we decided to go with ryans frens to go cs watch same movie..

its ok, i dun care,as long as i'm outside, its enough.

they wanted to watch twillight but i refused...

i juz didn't feel like it.

so they wanted to watch yes man,

but too late.

in the end, decided to watch the day the earth stood still.

nice choice.

the movie was ok, but the damn cinema was freakin cold and the nearest toilet was outside!!!

wtf!!had to bear urine till end show...

then walked home with ryan

then i check my phone and saw chawit had given me a missed call

so i called back and he asked me to join him at tm...

so i walked all the way back to meet him at cs...

wtf.

and the whole time my pants kept f*ckin droppin cause i forgot to wear a belt!!!

but i dun think it would have made a dif

at home, the pants juz slipped off my body..

over dieting...

but best of all,

i enjoyed the walk home(except for the pants pulling)

it was so nice walkin on that patch of grass,

i dunno why, but for that moment,

i felt sorta happy,free.

then i decided that i had to go to australia..

that someday, i must go there.

had a vision of me walkin alone like that on a road in the middle of a plains,

it was so peaceful.

really hope i can go there soon!

2008-12-18T01:44:00.000+08:00

wtf???!!

something uber weird juz happened....

i was about to turn off and go sleep wen i see ou wen online alone on my contact

so i ask her wad she doin

she asked me to sms wei ling.

sayin that she bored and i'm obviously bored, so we shld talk.

but wei ling said not and she was sleeping and that ou wen wanted to talk to me..

then i ask her, she say she gtg and got offline before i could ask..

wtf??something is seriously fishy about them.

its like they have to tell me something but dun dare to and are pushing me to each other so the other person can do the job which they dun dare to do..

if i'm right, means something bad has happened to me?

well, i better get mentally prepared for it,

so wen they finally tell me,

i'll be ready and can take it

PS: finally got to the problem of emptiness, i need more exercise, tmr goin out with ryan :)and tmr startin my very own training!!!

2008-12-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

hiaz...

its been a long while since i've done anything meaningful

or useful.

or at least, fun.

spent this few shit holiday days killin bordem by gaming away...

feel very i dunno,empty...

i really dun like it wen nothing useful or meaningful is done

argh!!

well, it could've been better if i had someone to talk to...

someone that cares for me..

someone that cares more than juz a fren..

or a grandson,

but that someone,

sadly,

doesn't exist.

i've not got a lover..

cause i've not found love.

duh..

but before i continue with my life and move on,

first, i have to find my heart,

so i can finally put my heart into things and not let my mind wander off when i doing thing

haiz.. hope i find it soon,

gotta start searchin for it man..

dunno where to start though,

maybe shld try rubbish dumps.

hope someone doesn't find it before me,

or it all have to start all over again..

crap man...

my life really really really sucks,

if that stupid streak of bad luck didn't start,

all this shit won't had happenend and i wont be like this...

haiz...

gd luck to me then

---------

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2008-12-16T11:58:00.000+08:00

Everyone feels something about themselves...

some ppl think they are great,

others think they are awesome,

but some ppl don't even know that they exist..

what about me?

what do i think about me?

i've been thinkin bout this question for very long..

finally i've come up with this answer...

What i feel/think about myself

First of all attitude, i think my attitude sucks about things...i dunno wen to let go even when i noe i have have no chance of lets say, wining a game.I am a good for nothin busybody who thinks i care but actually i don't. i don't care about anyone and not even me. i am unfilial to my parents and my grandma. I think too much, i talk too much, play too much,sit too much,eat too much,sleep too much,breathe too much and even 'too' too much. I am over ambitious and think that i can accomplish big things in the future but all i can accomplish is BIG SHIT! i get too happy with success and i get too sad with failure.i have bad luck and i am pessimistic. i have an ugly face and a stupid brain.i am poor and yet i ask for more than my family can afford. i have a bad figure, low stamina , low physical fitness,low iq,low eq, low imunity and easily low spirits. i am good for NOTHING and good at NOTHING.

2008-12-13T12:37:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE F*CK IS WRONG WITH YOU,F*CKIN BODY!!!

YOUR F*CKIN FEVER FINALLY DROPPED AND LET UR STILL TORTURING ME?

EVERYTIME I F*CKIN GET OFF THE BED U MAKE ME ALMOST FAINT,

WHAT THE F*CK IS THIS!!!

YOU EVEN LET THE F*CKIN HEADACHE STAY!!

IF MY BODY WAS BOUGHT,

I WANT A REFUND!!!

2008-12-13T00:16:00.000+08:00

haiz...

after 3days of suffering,

fever finally subsided....

mornin my temperature flew to 40.0

i kept vomitting and had diarreah..

muscle aches and bone pain too...

doctor say if i dun get better maybe could be dengue..

phew,temperature dropped after 4+ in afternoon to 38+

now no more fever liao :)

but i still damn weak..

haiz...

probably gonna have to skip another company run...

2008-12-09T23:43:00.000+08:00

haiz...
so freakin bored at home..
nobody seems to wan go watch movie with me...
even more sian...
nvm that.
at least i'm goin hikin with dad tmr :)
sounds fun!!not..
actualy,i'm goin cause i took up his challenge..
he said i wouldn't be able endure BTH...
wtf?dyin of a hill?
no way!
thats how i ended up in this shit...
haiz, still bored...
tata~

2008-12-08T22:04:00.000+08:00

seriously...

i think i really need a break..

i really nid a really, really need to take a break from this world..

from me..

from anyone i noe..

a trip to some poor villiage somewhere far from here would be nice..

yea.

as if that would happen..

why the hell does money have to be sooooo damn important!

its juz paper!!!

why can it do all these shit to me!!!!!

argh!!!

My chao da arm on day 2

2008-12-05T23:07:00.000+08:00

let this be a warning to all hu eat at century square roti prata stall,

pls dun no rest ur hand on the coffee/tea machine,

unless u wan this!!!

2008-12-04T23:51:00.000+08:00

man...

i'm so heartless...

stepped on a snail during training...

that poor thing got stuck into the drain gaps with bits of its shell missing..

it sure die...

and i still continue and dun give a shit..

wa lao eh..

wad has become of me???

but i still got my punishment:)

got my skin cooked by some machine wen i touched it!!

then it was soooo pain...

but sooo enjoyable...

i go watch show liao

bye

2008-12-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

wtf...

seriously,WHAT THE F*CK!!

i juz got ArmA but cant play it!!!

noob com!!!

stupid noob video card!!!

my stupid sis make my com tio virus!!!

that stupid son of a gun took control of my msn and spammed useless stuff to them..

pop-ups and viruses,I HATE YOU!!

2008-11-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

juz realised that no1s reading my blog....

sad man...

nvm its ok...at least NoOne reads it...

lol...

NoOne is better than no1...

haha...

sian...

I HATE STUPID POP UPS!!!

THEY LAG MY I.E. !!!

ARGH!!

been like 1 month since i last played SF..

stupid firefox!!!why wont u work!!!

....at least i got gunz to level 30...

by questing and glitching...

pathetic...

theres someplace better,someplace beneath...

2008-11-19T10:53:00.000+08:00

i really cant take it anymore...

this time i'm seriously considering meeting the ground...

from 13 stories up...

i juz cant live anymore...

you gave me hope,gave me change..

but now i give me death...

this year had been very eventfull, i must say..

it's the most happy year of my life and also the saddest..

why cant you forgive me?

why???

i've begged you,i've prayed,ive even cryed

but nothing ever works..

god went on holiday and i'm left to die..

why must fate be so cruel to me!!!

why doesn't anything that i put my heart in come out as good results!!!

i'm a spent force..

i give up...

if you can't take my apologies..

how about death,would you be satisfied if i died?

2008-11-16T22:12:00.001+08:00

dammit..

whole body aching from company run and bad sleep..

should have gone company runs more often..

tomorrow's amanda's birthday,

so happy birthday!!!

tmr is double event day!!!

1, the above^^^birthday

2,Anual Shooting competition!!!

hope i dun end up as reserve...

hope the lord will have mercy and give me at least a 3rd :)

aniways..

went to mama's hse cause i didn't want to go out...

brought my laptop along but..

internet couldn't work...

so i got so bored i did something lame...

TADAA!!an edited version of totoroa

or otherwise known as xiong mao or bear cat by direct translate..

all the best to me!!!

hope this year AHSNCC best shooter will be private chng wee liang :)

wow...i'm so hou lian pi

so tata~~

2008-11-16T00:25:00.000+08:00

finally found some KISS songs...

didn't think that finding songs from such a famous band would be so hard..

turns out..

their songs are too old...

cannot find easily..

finally got limewire to help

and sucess!!

sian..

still dun wan to do my links yet...

best day ever!!

2008-11-12T15:54:00.000+08:00

oh yea!!!
today's getting better and better!!!
early in the morning got the news that today no training...
thank god for that cause i still have muscle ache from last training..
whats more worth thanking god for,
SHE juz msned me!!
god rocks man!!
my prayers were finally answer!!!
this is awesome!!
wish this awesome-ness keeps up!!
ta ta~~~

most tiring training ever!!!

2008-11-10T22:18:00.001+08:00

man...

i'm so damn beat...

came home fromNCC barely able to lift my arms...

everything felt so f*ckin heavy...

even hard trouble carryin my keyboard...

seriously,WHAT THE F*CK.

the most demanding training i ever had,

200+ pumpings..

yes i'm weak, the only thing i'm good at is doing finger pumpings.

an i'm serious...

doing finger pumpings onli nid u to endure pain..

its juz basically 5 push-ups...

crap man...

i even made the comment "its like partA camp compressed in 3hours"

i dun like to talk alot...

so,

tata!!

damn u tittle!

2008-11-05T22:06:00.000+08:00

my life is totally screwed...
damn the stupid timing is important saying..
damn my f*ckin laptop that isn't rightfully mine..
damn my genes for making me so short...
but most importantly, damn me for being so stupid...

2008-11-04T14:32:00.000+08:00

sian... my sf...

class chalet

2008-10-29T12:06:00.000+08:00

my first class chalet wif 1h...
sad to say, quite disappointin....
its not exactly a class chalet cause less than half the class went...
too short also...
and i ran out of money :P
but chawit kena my throat germs...
sad man...
i think i owe ppl money but i forgot hu...
stupid right???
although cant blame charmaine to bad time,
juz hope nxt chalet nxt year will at least be better wif better attendence...
sian....
somemore i missed a whole chunk of it...
dun feel like goin into details....
byebye

a sad story i can relate my life to...

2008-10-23T18:24:00.001+08:00

I woke up on the bathroom floor again. All my friends had to leave because they couldn't get in and I was alone again. "I hate my life," I thought. I had for a long time. As far back as I can remember all I wanted was to be loved and accepted. Instead, I was ridiculed and put down for my looks and my so called "lack of brain power." I ended up with no personality, nothing that would cause anyone to want to spend time with me.

it's time!!!!

2008-10-21T18:28:00.000+08:00

its time for me to get a life...
it is time....
to bring this blog to life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...

2008-03-18T17:27:00.001+08:00

yo yo my new blog